big girls don't cry

the moment when you cried to sleep.

alone

when u feel your life is miserable

when you know no one wanted to be there for you

when you know no one wanted to support you

why other ppl can be so happy

why they can be so lucky

sometimes

life is not fair

but

i never put the blame on God 

it just came crossed a moment when i thought of why this happened

i don't know

if possible

i just want to cry

and tell the stories 

to someone who can be a supporter

not annoyed me

i keep this

alone

it makes me feel lonely 

i feel no one is here

but the fact is

they thought i loves doing my own things

they thought i don't need them to talk

hmm they know nothing

because i never tell

they thought i can survive

but in reality

count how many times

i did thought of suicide

being a suicidal

everything is undercover.

i want to talk alot

i want to sing alot

just to forget my sadness

i am sorry, dearself

i don't want to be this way

i don't want to be sad

i hate crying, yet i do it alot