yes i am ; yes i was

i cant sleep last night. i really cant sleep.

suddenly..

it's me and you, now
i've been waiting ..

oh jangan pelik.
bunyi ringtone je tu

i picked up my phone

"hello daughter long time no talk" 
"how have you been there"

well out of sudden a warm tears came up

"i'm doing great dad"
"don't worry"
"hope you doing well too, dad"

it's short.
really short conversation.

well dad. i miss u the most. you said you wants to have a vacation to uk soon. if it happen, please do stop here. see how my life was going here.

i know they are doing well. my family. i see those photos on whatsapp family group. i know they all doing well and happy by reading their conversation.

hmmm.

i still hate myself. can't help.


bye.